back to my first love

i started back in scene study last night with Scott Freeman. i took class with him at The Actor's Center. it was awesome. totally awesome. it really sank in that i'm in a totally different place than i was three years ago. the rest of the class are great actors and beautiful and young. there's a little bit of envy that these young people are so confident and pulled together in a way that i wasn't at that age (24-29ish). however, i don't envy the highs and deep dark lows that they have yet to encounter. i've already gone through all that and it's out of my system. i feel resilient. it's like i've been inoculated.

i'm in a really great place. my basic self-confidence is so much healthier than it was even 6 months ago. i know i can dive deeper into my work, make my work more sophisticated, smarter, scarier, sexier because i'm holding back less. and i'm just starting to become more efficient in my work which helps me to not get so overwhelmed with the amount of work i have to do and helps me to act on impulse instead of acting on analysis.

i felt like i was massaging latent acting muscles and prepping them for a great workout and it felt amazing. the class runs late 6:30 - 10:30pm, but i could have staying there working all night...